Jedi Elana

Gosh tonight was such an emotionally charged day....
haven't been this PISSED for a long time....
pissed at myself.....
at my lack of planning, time consciousness.....
because of my "hong so"-ness,... wanting to go to G-Spot with EH, PS and Sherlene, was "reluctant" to leave to hook up mom's PD machine, and ended up reaching home much later than supposed to (I have early day next day)

and as if things were not bad enough, the proverbial shit hit the fan... haha...
right at the last step, the Patient Line dropped while I was washing hand during Priming and the water leaked all over the place... argggghhhhh.......
was superrrr pissed.....
ended up doing what I do best when pissed at self, cleaned and mopped the whole house... hahaa....

so made a vow to be more proactive in planning and trying harder to carry out the plan, or else things will be come much more worse!

and have also realised... aiyoh liking guys really get you up in a knot....
you just make weird decisions and cannot think straight... ish! cari pasal...
hmmm starting to get irritated with him... good sign.... putting him high on a pedestal is not a good thing

ok... think of this as part of the settling back in Penang process.... you're still finding your groove in a new environment....
and well... SHIT HAPPENS... it's part of anicca...
and remember what EH says... tomorrow is a brand new day....